I am still going to write on this blog regarding this subject but I am also writing a book about it. I want to share my experience with an alcoholic and also maybe help others see they are not alone. It has been a rough 30+ years for me. The relationship with my ex did not end with divorce because we have kids together. It is pretty much over now because our kids are grown but it is sad that it has come to that. It is sad that he is the kind of person I do not even want to speak to and hope to never see again in my entire life.
It is sad that I would not feel sorrow if the man I loved once would leave this world, I would actually feel relief because he is such a mentally abusive person to myself and mostly to our sons. I just do not know how anyone can treat their own kids like has been treating ours.
It is sad that I wish he had not survived last year when he became ill and sad that I wish I had not taken over and helped him and I wish he had lost everything he owns.
I will get into more detail later on and in my book. I plan to focus most of my time on the book however.
