I wanted to back track a little bit and say some things I did not say in the beginning of this story. I want to share what happens to someone when they delve into the world of alcohol. I want to share how someone becomes a person who fries his brain with alcohol.
However this is not just about the road to alcohol dementia. It is mostly my journey along side my ex husband as he walked that fateful road. It is about how I stayed in the marriage for 20 years, how I became "that wife". The wife who enabled the alcoholic. How I survived life with an alcoholic and how I finally found the courage to walk away.
It is also about how even though I walked away I struggled to stay away from the entire situation because of our children together. How Jerry's mom was also an enabler and how I finally broke free from the co-dependency of being "that wife".
Then I have come full circle and am once again a part of his life but yet am not. I still have my freedom from him but yet feel imprisoned by my life with an calico and the roads I've traveled.
I hope by the end of this story I am healed and can move past all of this. The family of an alcoholic suffers greatly. I hope that I can help my children heal because they have been effected by the alcoholism too. They actually do much better than me most of the time but they also have ghosts that haunt them. I hope as I write here I can help them heal too through my words and as we move forward together as a family. I am much better than I was years ago but there are still many ghosts that haunt me and this blog is my road to recovery.
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